M in wonderland... Can't exactly visit what i'd describe as a wonderland yet, so the backside of @bebinigelati should do for now 🤣. FYI, i edited out some unsightly things out of this pic as well and honestly i am impressed at how i progress in editing 🤣🤣🤣. Wanna see the original pic? Lemme know, i'll share it in my stories. Should've done a slide of before and after but i'm too lazy to discard this draft and start a new one... Oufit details :Off shoulder top : @cottononidSale, actually i probably bought it in Singapore for SDG 5 or something.Skirt : Bugis Street, Singapore.Petticoat : Ali Express 🤣.Socks : Shopee.Glittery shoes : mom bought it for me in Aussie.Self confidence : naturally gained after many years of fighting assholes who keeps on trying to feed my insecurities. #ootd #ootdid #sbybeautyblogger #bblogger #bbloggerid #influencer #influencerindonesia #surabayainfluencer #beautyinfluencer #beautybloggerid #beautybloggerindonesia #bloggerceria #beautynesiamember #influencersurabaya #indonesianblogger #indonesianbeautyblogger #surabayablogger #surabayabeautyblogger #bloggerperempuan #clozetteid #sbybeautyblogger #girl #BeauteFemmeCommunity #notasize0 #surabayainfluencer #personalstyle #surabaya #effyourbeautystandards #celebrateyourself

Happy weekend guys.. Yes, i edited this one too. For those who are asking, my editing skill is very low, i can only do very limited types of editing 🙈 - i used Picsart and clone the clean part over the stained part. Hope that helps!

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For those who are asking (because there are plenty 🤣), this photo series is very old, maybe 2 years old? It was taken in an event organizer's exhibition slash photo spot in TP. It is torn down already so you will not be able to find it anymore.

And for those of you who seems to be concerned, i am yet to go out, still staying at home - you can track it from my hashtags 😅. I will start new normal soon though, i think it's inevitable, but ofc i will stay safe and stay away from crowds, but we all have to leave the house someday... #superthrowback
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During this pandemi, everybody try to find their own way to survive, to float and to stay sane.I found out that i need to be busy and productive to feel good, i don't judge anyone who do the opposite but i also expect the same treatment. My achievements are not something anyone should be threaten of.Super glad that i found a new, massive online family and support system that i might never have if not for the pandemic, hope we'll stay strong and solid together! #superthrowback #ootd #ootdid #sbybeautyblogger #bblogger #bbloggerid #influencer #influencerindonesia #surabayainfluencer #beautyinfluencer #beautybloggerid #beautybloggerindonesia #bloggerceria #beautynesiamember #influencersurabaya #indonesianblogger #indonesianbeautyblogger #surabayablogger #surabayabeautyblogger #bloggerperempuan #clozetteid #sbybeautyblogger #girl #BeauteFemmeCommunity #notasize0 #surabayainfluencer #personalstyle #surabaya #effyourbeautystandards #celebrateyourself

Do you know, i am super scared of real butterflies? Actually i'm super scared of any bug (and plenty of other things too) but one of the top of my list is dragonflies. If i see one flying near me i would start screaming, climbing anything that i can climb and showing my hands to my ears coz i am conviced that they would fly right into my ears and dig through my brain 🙁. What irrational fears do you have? #superthrowback #ootd #ootdid #sbybeautyblogger #bblogger #bbloggerid #influencer #influencerindonesia #surabayainfluencer #beautyinfluencer #beautybloggerid #beautybloggerindonesia #bloggerceria #beautynesiamember #influencersurabaya #indonesianblogger #indonesianbeautyblogger #surabayablogger #surabayabeautyblogger #bloggerperempuan #clozetteid #sbybeautyblogger #girl #BeauteFemmeCommunity #notasize0 #surabayainfluencer #personalstyle #surabaya #effyourbeautystandards #celebrateyourself

Words cuts.

Too often people finds it so easy to say things that they think is funny, or means nothing - just some flippant words for a cheap or two, but for some (i would say a lot) those words cuts. Deeper than you ever thought and for plenty of us who feels more, we carry it with us like scars.

I'm used to be teased, being bigger than your average petite Asian stereotypes, even when i was once skin and bones, i was never skinny enough for people to stop commenting about my body.

With my demeanor (i am naturally shy, some people mistaken my shyness as bitchiness and sometimes arrogance but when you are older than me/someone i know/a friend of a friend then i tend to hide my shyness with jokes and laughter - which again people mistaken as a welcome sign to say demeaning jokes about me) and my years-younger-appareance (young uns, i'm probably old enough to be your mother) it's just so easy to get too comfortable to say stupid things to me and think that it's okay.

What's weirder to me? Is those people who attacks with their snakey tounges usually have their own weight problems (on both spectrums), this makes me believe that it's their own inability to accept and love their bodies that makes them bitter with the way i love mine. Sad people are pathetic, in their minds others who they think shares their problem (although honestly, they are usually a lot bigger than me) should be as sad and bothered as them, therefore they try to bring you down by saying mean things about you.

Have you ever think people who says mean things about you this way? Coz i know for a fact that it's true... Why can't we all be a little kinder, a little more cautious with our words?
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Taking a break from close up, indoor, quarantine posts with posting a set of throwback OOTD (throw way back when i still sport a full front bangs 🤣, it's been a long while) i never posted while sharing my musings about some deeper issues.Sharing this picture reminds me how uncomfortable i was that day, i carry my weight around my arms and thighs (and face) the most, while i can tell you i have a flat tummy, i sometimes joke about how my arms are not for public consumption because i i find them hideous. Do i hate my body? I truly don't. After many many years of struggling, i have finally accepted my body, but that doesn't mean i have no inscecurities about them. Ofc i do. I would still wear this dress but in the future, for my own comfort, i will pair it with something that covers my arms. Not because i am ashamed of them though, but because i want and deserve to feel good and comfortable.This is something that most people fail to understand, body acceptance and body positivity is not a movement to glorify obesity (and anorexia), it is a movement to celebrate and accept being able to love yourself regardless of your shape and weight.It's also a bit sad how people (especially Indonesian 🤣, i guess it is the same for some Asian countries) are also so ready to remind us how flawed we are (i will be sharing some stories that i wasn't ready to share before but i think i am now) and how it's supposed to be okay to make fun/comment on other people's bodies - and when the person's offended, then he/she is petty/unreasonable/cannot take joke. That is effed up.If any of you managed to read my whole caption, feel free to share with me your own insecurities and if you find me raising such issues to be interesting? #ootd #ootdid #mybodymyrules #sbybeautyblogger #bblogger #bbloggerid #influencer #influencerindonesia #surabayainfluencer #beautyinfluencer #beautybloggerid #beautybloggerindonesia #bloggerceria #beautynesiamember #influencersurabaya #indonesianblogger #indonesianbeautyblogger #surabayablogger #surabayabeautyblogger #bloggerperempuan #clozetteid #girl #asian #notasize0 #personalstyle #surabaya #effyourbeautystandards #celebrateyourself

A very rare, non throwback full length pic 🤣, i hope PSBB is going to be successful so at least i can start taking pics again outside at small doses like this... I'm getting sick of all those selfies 😳. Ps : for those of u who are used to my girly, floaty outfits, i also love casual clothes (i LOVE oversize boys tee!) and wear them a lot, i rarely take pics in them but i had to (for a campaign) this time so why not sneak in a little ootd 😁. #ootd #ootdid #sbybeautyblogger #bblogger #bbloggerid #influencer #influencerindonesia #surabayainfluencer #beautyinfluencer #beautybloggerid #beautybloggerindonesia #bloggerceria #beautynesiamember #influencersurabaya #indonesianblogger #indonesianbeautyblogger #surabayablogger #surabayabeautyblogger #bloggerperempuan #clozetteid #girl #asian #notasize0 #personalstyle #surabaya #effyourbeautystandards #celebrateyourself #sportystyle #casual #akunacafe

Snapped a few pics in this position because there were people dining at the back, they're a lot more visible in the other snaps. Tried to edit them but WHITE FLAG. I just dunno how to do them 😢😢😢. #throwback #ootd #ootdid #sbybeautyblogger #bblogger #bbloggerid #influencer #influencerindonesia #surabayainfluencer #beautyinfluencer #beautybloggerid #beautybloggerindonesia #bloggerceria #beautynesiamember #influencersurabaya #indonesianblogger #indonesianbeautyblogger #surabayablogger #surabayabeautyblogger #bloggerperempuan #clozetteid #girl #asian #notasize0 #personalstyle #surabaya #effyourbeautystandards #celebrateyourself #arteastiq #arteastiqsurabaya